inspired from the man of all bloggers/live-journalers...

lying awake.

as i was trying to fall asleep...not too long ago...i came to the realization that, i was unable to fall asleep :T
such circumstance perplexed me.
i woke up at a decent hour.
had a long car ride.
went out.
basically had a full day's worth of activities...yet i was remained lying on my bed, awake.

then a huge clutter of maybes bombarded my brain.

maybe it's because i woke up at 10 rather than 7.
maybe it's because i'm thinking too much about tomorrow.
maybe it's because i had two sips of those mocha/coconut fraps from Starbucks.
maybe it's because i drank that peach green tea thing.
maybe it's because there's no AC.
maybe it's because there's no breeze.
maybe it's because i'm not used to my own bed.
maybe it's because of that heat rash.
maybe it's because i keep scratching it.
maybe it's because of my bites.
maybe it's because i keep scratching them.
maybe it's because i'm straining to hear the sounds of toronto (the sirens, the screeching car tires, the buses passing, the silence.
maybe it's because i want to remember the sounds of the cottage (the loons, the waves, the bugs, the mysterious roof noises, the trees blowing)
maybe it's because i keep thinking about the past year.
maybe it's because i keep reminiscing.
maybe it's because so much has been going on.
maybe it's because i'm listening to justin timberlake...which makes you want to get up and do something, rather than close your eyes.

so i switched to a much healthier sound.

Mr. Steve Fee.

it was then that i remembered a quote and through that and track 6, sacred space, i reckoned that God is constant.

i remembered my YB comment to someone:

Throughout any lifetime of such tumultuous changes, is no secular constant.

i never realized just how many useless maybes there are in life. and i guess i understand (somewhat?) just how constant God is…amidst it all.

in You, Jesus, my questions disappear