Okay, I know this is really easy to say (because my exams are over and because I am thinking in retrospect) but there is goodness in exams!!!

If not to serve the purpose of testing your knowledge in a very, one-sided, not- really-reflective-of-a-person's-intelligence way..then it just simply makes you appreciate everything that happens when it is not exam time.

Like today. During my biology exam, at about 10:35 am--I finished answering all the questions and it occurred to me that I was done exams! I started quietly giggling to myself and I was just smiling for the rest of the half-hour. I know that makes me sound insane--but I began to look forward to all the essays I must write and other test that I must now study for and extra assignment that I have the option of doing. Wow. I know I must sound like, uber cool..but I don't care because I had a wonderful day.

Some gifties, that should have been studying for physics, wanted to go to Kipling station to be cool--so I said I would give them a ride to Scarborough Town Center and then they could take the bus there. On the way there, I sarcastically said that I would LOVE to join them and then when I refused to join them when I 'dropped them off', they refused to get out of my car. So I parked my car and we sat there--both sides, stubborn (to the max..heheehe) each side refusing to give in. So poor Alwin sat there...who actually wanted to go home and study for Physics--an innocent bystander to out stupidness.

Well, I dropped Alwin at home and they came to my house. I fed them pizza/candy and we watched XXX. I drove them back to STC and here I am now, blogging to my heart's content and writing for once in full sentences.

Things to do:
- English ISU, Classical Civilizations, Mod West draft essays due
- Politics Assignment (Enlightened Despotism)
- Biology Chapter 6 (sheet)
- study for Mod West Unit Test (on Tuesday)

Alexa's view on my turning 18:
"So¡Kthe time has come. One year closer to being senile. One year closer to being old and ugly. See, getting older isn't so bad!
P.S. I've decided you need a new name. I think it should be Fatty McFat"
- getting older isn't so bad, I can vote! I have a SAY now! I feel so empowered!
- plus! Alex got me the "Singing in the Rain" (50th Anniversary Edition, 2 disc special) DVD....GENE KELLY! (I honestly wish I lived in the 50s)

Currently......
Reading: (just started) Judges/"Where is God when it hurts" by Philip Yancey...who is my new hero, he is sooo smart!
Eating: Miss Vickie's chips
Listening: to anything (trying to find everything) by Frank Sinatra
"Love of my life" by Erykah Badu/Common....is still the best song though
Mood: insanely happy and very tired

You know what is hard? Trying to understand God like , as a whole. He is like infinite and you can't encapsulate Him at all, no matter how hard you try....it's like impossible to. Maybe we're not supposed to try and understand God as a whole....I have no idea. You know--but as a human person, who is able to comprehend most things and encapsulate them...I just try to..
Last fellowship was about The Big Picture and it's so like, weird to try and see your life in the grand scheme of things, since most of the time--we're too self-absorbed to see anything that is beyond now. I don't know but at the same time you need to quasi-focus on now because you have to use your life for God, you can't spend your whole life waiting for your calling and doing nothing--expecting some kind of miraculous sign from God. But at the same time you can't just rush into everything without waiting. AHHH!!! I'm contradicting myself!! This is what happens when you don't know anything....you argue with yourself and go in circles.

I think this is long enough for now. Wow, I've spent the day away and have nothing to show for it. Time to do something productive :)

*Smile! God thinks you're cute!!